365/365 | 2017.
It’s the last day of 2017.
I’m gonna pen down my thoughts and feelings that I have been through in the whole entire year, and maybe the year before too. There’re things in life that happened and you’re not ready to let go, or not ready for it to happen. We’re never ready for anything..
But this time, I’m ready to close the chapters, for good.
I’ll admit, I haven’t been a good Friend sometimes. That I tend to be overly enthusiastic for gatherings, or prompting gatherings because I love to see all my loved ones gather and have fun. But apparently it’s not like this for others. I’ve been in disagreements with my closed ones because of these. Whether for gatherings, for being enthusiastic, for being initiative. I have friends whom fell out with me for the craziest reasons, and despite constantly apologising and trying to make things right, they left.
You got me there,
Was I not enough?
I Guess not..
Even instances I knew it wasn’t my fault, I apologised. Because this relationship we hold was important to me. I did enough but it doesn’t seem like it was in their eyes. I threw away all my anger and ego to apologise wanting to make things right. But you were hurt by what you saw and ignore what you didn’t knew I was thinking. It’s okay, it really is. People have different standards in life don’t they? I understand, and i learnt the hard way that maybe we ain’t really best friends like how I thought we would. But May your life still be blessed with joy and laughter like always.
And in all these broken friendship and relationships, I’ll always remember the good days.
Now as I’m ready to embrace the new year, I don’t want to look back at all these anymore. I don’t want to fight for people who won’t fight for me. I dont want to feel miserable, for wanting to be spending time with someone who doesn’t want to spend time with me.
We are all precious to someone else, we all are worth it. You’ve just got to find someone who thinks of you the same as when you think of them.
Cheers.
——
Despite it all, I’m actually very very thankful for all the different opportunities that I was given this year. Meeting new friends, getting more knowledgeable, travelling overseas and exploring new places. Not forgetting all the different shoots I had with all those wonderful wonderful people behind the camera, my friends:) I’m Glad to find another kind of stress relief in front of the camera and expressing different types of emotions through a photo.
For those reading this, we’ve all gone through a lot. The toughest days might have came through but then tougher times will still come. May we be bless through shit like this. But instead on dwelling on those sad and depressing days, let’s look on the bright side and embrace all the good in life 💕
And hopefully I’ll go another step closer to achieving my dreams, and to whomever reading this now, you too. I’m gonna end this on a happy note,
This year I went to Hong Kong, Korea, Batam, Perth, Cairns and Taiwan. Most places seems familiar to me, but I’ve definitely managed to explore different places, and keep sake the best memories I have each time of my travel. I managed to countdown to 2017 in Aussie as well, it’s a beautiful moment I’ll never forget. And watching all my friends getting married or being proposed to, I can’t help but believe greater things are coming.
Ps: I know I owe a lot of travel blogs, just give me some more time. I’ll make sure I’ll put it all up hopefully within the next two months.
Till then,
I’m closing this chapter for good, I’m gonna let go all those grudges I used to have, and those unhappiness I have in me. And you should too, toast to a better 2018 and drink away all the unwanted memories.
Goodnight, and have a happy 2018!
I’m gonna pen down my thoughts and feelings that I have been through in the whole entire year, and maybe the year before too. There’re things in life that happened and you’re not ready to let go, or not ready for it to happen. We’re never ready for anything..
But this time, I’m ready to close the chapters, for good.
I’ll admit, I haven’t been a good Friend sometimes. That I tend to be overly enthusiastic for gatherings, or prompting gatherings because I love to see all my loved ones gather and have fun. But apparently it’s not like this for others. I’ve been in disagreements with my closed ones because of these. Whether for gatherings, for being enthusiastic, for being initiative. I have friends whom fell out with me for the craziest reasons, and despite constantly apologising and trying to make things right, they left.
You got me there,
Was I not enough?
I Guess not..
Even instances I knew it wasn’t my fault, I apologised. Because this relationship we hold was important to me. I did enough but it doesn’t seem like it was in their eyes. I threw away all my anger and ego to apologise wanting to make things right. But you were hurt by what you saw and ignore what you didn’t knew I was thinking. It’s okay, it really is. People have different standards in life don’t they? I understand, and i learnt the hard way that maybe we ain’t really best friends like how I thought we would. But May your life still be blessed with joy and laughter like always.
And in all these broken friendship and relationships, I’ll always remember the good days.
Now as I’m ready to embrace the new year, I don’t want to look back at all these anymore. I don’t want to fight for people who won’t fight for me. I dont want to feel miserable, for wanting to be spending time with someone who doesn’t want to spend time with me.
We are all precious to someone else, we all are worth it. You’ve just got to find someone who thinks of you the same as when you think of them.
Cheers.
——
Despite it all, I’m actually very very thankful for all the different opportunities that I was given this year. Meeting new friends, getting more knowledgeable, travelling overseas and exploring new places. Not forgetting all the different shoots I had with all those wonderful wonderful people behind the camera, my friends:) I’m Glad to find another kind of stress relief in front of the camera and expressing different types of emotions through a photo.
For those reading this, we’ve all gone through a lot. The toughest days might have came through but then tougher times will still come. May we be bless through shit like this. But instead on dwelling on those sad and depressing days, let’s look on the bright side and embrace all the good in life 💕
And hopefully I’ll go another step closer to achieving my dreams, and to whomever reading this now, you too. I’m gonna end this on a happy note,
This year I went to Hong Kong, Korea, Batam, Perth, Cairns and Taiwan. Most places seems familiar to me, but I’ve definitely managed to explore different places, and keep sake the best memories I have each time of my travel. I managed to countdown to 2017 in Aussie as well, it’s a beautiful moment I’ll never forget. And watching all my friends getting married or being proposed to, I can’t help but believe greater things are coming.
Ps: I know I owe a lot of travel blogs, just give me some more time. I’ll make sure I’ll put it all up hopefully within the next two months.
Till then,
I’m closing this chapter for good, I’m gonna let go all those grudges I used to have, and those unhappiness I have in me. And you should too, toast to a better 2018 and drink away all the unwanted memories.
Goodnight, and have a happy 2018!
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